My cousin, he tried to convince me from his side, said I could be in touch with all of them(friends). "Friends are always there. They're not gonna get you a job." Those were his mighty words. I secretly knew, he was right, but still I could never do that. To that point, although my thoughts were like building a castle out of sand as far as everything was concerned, it came to a moral epiphany. I am the guy who'll be there for my loved ones. For me life wasn't all about focussing on one aspect in particular. It was more of trying to strike a balance between all the things surrounding me. That isn't an easy task at all! Akila and few other newly made good friends, we barely got to meet. I was caught up with this dilemma as of what to do? Should I leave them behind and be like others who go abroad to work their ass off to earn a lot of money? Moral Dilemma. My eyes were on the verge of tears with the very thought. My aunt cajoled me saying, I could earn enough money, working in Muscat/Dubai, get my parents over there to stay with me. Then after 5-6 years, I can go to where my cousin would be, probably United States, and pursuit my Sound Engineering course of whatever. I don't know. I was close to having a paradigm shift in my life. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what was gonna happen. So, I never respond to aunt's words and just left the room and the topic came to a lull.
Until that evening, something really good happened. All these while, I was pushed to the limit too many times and I wondered what to do. It was about time that some great driving force emerged from within and suddenly, I was more certain of what I want to do now and how to go about it. Things became more clear w.r.t my short term plan. I'd decided to stay in India and pursuit my Studio career without going abroad. By far, the most important and great decision that I took. I knew for a fact, what I'd decided would definitely work out. How can it not? I'll make it happen. I will. That was the time I was content and sort of like found "Inner Peace".
This post is basically to remind myself in future supposing the times get tough, as to what made me choose this life in the first place and how I started it all.